I'm not tied

Talking to S after the party, I'm trying to explain why I probably shouldn't travel till 2006. Need time to plan. Need to capture that promotion at work. Need to tie up loose ends/people.

And so on.

Only while I'm saying it, it changes.

It changes into:
"There's never going to be a better moment for me to go than now. I'm not tied to any people, any job, or any place. If I wait, then those ties will catch up with me, because that's what life is like. So I need to go, and I need to go now."

I totally surprised myself. And it's utterly what I want to do.